Well I've been struggling to come up with something to post about for a while now, I had a baby shower at home that was
AMAZING, thanks so much for all those involved with it I truly feel blessed that I have all of you....anyway Ive been waiting to post about it until I get some pictures which I forgot to get from my sister. So until another day Ill have to blog about something else.
As I am approaching (4 Weeks!), having this baby I have SOOO many mixed emotions Im excited yet nervous, scared but oddly confident and sad but extremely happy. Its incredible! The nine months fly by so fast...at the beginning I was really wondering what the heck I was thinking even wanting to even have a baby. Im not really even a kid person and I have a lot to learn when it comes down to taking care of one, but after a lot of prayer and encouragement from my wonderful husband I have become okay with the fact I dont have to have all the answers now and my loving Heavenly Father wanted this for me right now. Im a firm believer that he does not give us trials that we can not handle. I am VERY excited to meet this little girl to see her, hold her and love her. The nerves come in when I think about the world she has to come into and the challenges and heartache she will have to endure, but I am confident as long as I can follow the spirit and teach her well she is strong enough to overcome this world and all of it's imperfections. I am going to miss her movements inside me I feel so selfish because I feel her all the time and although it is getting VERY uncomfortable I dont want that feeling to go away.
I just think that Heavenly Father really knew what he was doing when he made our bodies and our emotions and I am so thankful he is trusting me with one of his daughters especially because he DOES know me and my shortcomings. Just a few more weeks and I'll have my little baby. Kloee will be here to meet the world and my life more then I can even dream will be changed forever.
Sorry this is all you get...my mind is just spinning and I needed to let some of it out!