As I am approaching (4 Weeks!), having this baby I have SOOO many mixed emotions Im excited yet nervous, scared but oddly confident and sad but extremely happy. Its incredible! The nine months fly by so fast...at the beginning I was really wondering what the heck I was thinking even wanting to even have a baby. Im not really even a kid person and I have a lot to learn when it comes down to taking care of one, but after a lot of prayer and encouragement from my wonderful husband I have become okay with the fact I dont have to have all the answers now and my loving Heavenly Father wanted this for me right now. Im a firm believer that he does not give us trials that we can not handle. I am VERY excited to meet this little girl to see her, hold her and love her. The nerves come in when I think about the world she has to come into and the challenges and heartache she will have to endure, but I am confident as long as I can follow the spirit and teach her well she is strong enough to overcome this world and all of it's imperfections. I am going to miss her movements inside me I feel so selfish because I feel her all the time and although it is getting VERY uncomfortable I dont want that feeling to go away.
I just think that Heavenly Father really knew what he was doing when he made our bodies and our emotions and I am so thankful he is trusting me with one of his daughters especially because he DOES know me and my shortcomings. Just a few more weeks and I'll have my little baby. Kloee will be here to meet the world and my life more then I can even dream will be changed forever.
Sorry this is all you get...my mind is just spinning and I needed to let some of it out!
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It's amazing how when you have your baby.. you will be a natural at playing mom. You will be able to tell what your baby needs more than anyone else will. You'll be a great mom! I felt the same way with Ashlyn about not wanting to lose the feeling of her moving in my tummy. I was sad when I had her and lost that feeling..b ut at the same time, my arms weren't empty anymore and I got to enjoy her so much and watch every little move she made!! Life will definitely change.. but for the better.. you will see!
You guys will be the best parents. I had the exact same feelings before having Mason. My biggest fear was that I wouldn't like my baby, or know what to do with him. Seriously? Okay, that lasted about half of a second after he was born. It's amazing how things all fall into place and suddenly you can't imagine your life without that little one. We're very excited to meet her too!
I am so excited for you guys! I wish you lived close to us so we could see you often and get to know this little girl more! I know exactly how you feel about feeling her move and not wanting that to end - I am still struggling with the loss. But what a trade!
I am so excited for you to get to start this new adventure! Believe me, no one is really READY to have kids. You just have to trust that it is right, and then you find out it IS!!! I couldn't believe what a natural mothering instinct took over when I had Heidi. I loved her so much instantly! And I was jealous of anyone else holding her too! I wanted her with me all the time. And it hasn't changed, down to my fourth. You'd think somewhere you'd run out of love, but the well just keeps getting deeper.
Awww... That was a beautiful post. I can't wait until she comes. You have such a great outlook on the whole pregnancy and that is wonderful. I know you are going to be a great mother. We have to remember it is a process of learning though. I can't wait to have my own!!!
I'm so excited to meet her too:) You and Darren are going to be wonderful parents! Our girls love you both, Kloee will be so blessed to have you as her parents.:) Love you Guys!
Hi Tessa! I remember being scared to bring a baby into this world full of awful things. But what I've learned from my kids is: Kloee will amaze you Tessa. There's a reason her spirit was saved until 2009!
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