Fall is settling in here and I am beginning to embrace it. This semester so far (even though we are only a month into it) has been one of my most difficult adjustments. I'm not completely sure the cause of this, there have been A LOT of changes, new apartment, lots of new people, new work schedule, new school schedule(Darren), and new daily routine/work out routine. The girls are getting more independent which is a GREAT thing they play well together, they sleep good, they are AMAZING. I've come to REALLY realize that I need to TRULY trust in my Heavenly Father. I've always known this but recently I have RELEARNED it. I've been in a SERIOUS spiritual rut, and it has been affecting every part of my life. I've been depressed, grumpy, impatient, extremely tired, and emotionally drained. We have been recently reminded because of numerous friends really struggling in their marriages that if we do not constantly work as a team, and progress together, all you have left is to grow apart and although things are really good right now we have seen how quickly things can go down hill. So we have gone back to the basics, we have upped our scripture reading, individually, with the girls and as a couple as well as our prayers, we have been focusing on having more meaningful FHE, and making a conscious effort to put aside more time to spend with just each other. Darren gave me a blessing a couple weeks ago the night we sat down to reevaluate things and the peace I felt has been carrying me since. The blessings have been pouring in and I know with out doubt that it is because of our efforts. I am so blessed and for a while I was just so wrapped up in my own stuff that I wasn't seeing it and what a horrible result.
I am so grateful for Darren who has really come through for me and loved me through this bump in my road and of course my babies for loving me even though I have had a short fuse. I am looking forward to this season full of fall leaves, soup, crisp cool air, warm blankets, snuggling with babies, SQUASH, halloween costumes, and my favorite FINISHING CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!!!!
Let FALL begin!
5 comments:
I understand how you are feeling. I've felt like this has been such a hard adjustment for me, but I am learning lots about myself and my Savior. Fall is always such an exciting time, but sometimes it takes work to enjoy it. Good luck!
This all sounds very familiar to me.
Great post.
I'm glad things are on the up and up.
I'm still not quite there yet.
I was just talking to Dru about how I love this season as well leading up to my favourtie day of the year........Christmas.
Thanks for this Tessa. I needed to hear this today.
i'm glad you wrote this, i've been going through some of the same stuff and the way you're handling it all is inspiring.
Sounds exactly like I have been feeling. I have had the same thoughts about more scripture reading, better FHE, more spiritual prayers, etc. I hope you start feeling a lot happier.
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